Wednesday 17 February 2016

The sound it makes? Nope

It is midnight here in my hometown and it's raining quite heavily,..

The thing with rain is that, well, I don't hate it but the sound that it make makes me feel uncomfortable. I'm fine when there's people all around, but if i am alone, I would feel kind of uncomfortable. More over if there's thunders and lightnings too.


The sound of the raindrops hitting the roofs, the road and all are so loud with the lightning so bright, and a sudden "JDEEERRR" sound, urgh. But the rain itself, honestly, I don't hate it, It's kind of windy when it rains, it's cold, it's feels nice.

So if you asked me,

"Do you like the rain?"

"The rain? Yes. The sound it makes? Nope"

#justarandompost

Wednesday 3 February 2016

That Feels I used to Feel...

It's been long since i last update,.
Not like I don't wanna update or anything,...
ever since I study in Beijing it's been kinda hard for me to connect to blogger as blogger is blocked there.


It used to be so fun to update blog, I always spent hours to update my blog, color the writings, finding the right anime pict for me to put them into the blog. I wonder where did all those passion went...

I don't have much to talk either. I used to talk about the person I hate here, also about the person I love. Currently, though, I don't have any feelings for anyone...

I did have feelings for this best friend of mine, but i've been rejected twice by him. As you guys would expect from a best friend, I am Friend-zoned.


I am now having a Winter holiday and haven't met him for weeks already, so i feel so normal right now. What i mean by normal is that I don't think I still have feelings for him now... At least I hope I don't.


This too,. It used to be so fun and exciting to fell in love with someone. I used to get so excited over every small thing that happens between me and that person i'm in love with. Now, however, I no longer felt those excitement. I feel empty. Rejection, friend-zone, doesn't have anything to do with this. I used to be friend-zone, etc, too but I still feel mostly happy to fell for someone... just by seeing that person I felt like I'm the happiest person in the whole world... but now, I don't feel that...

I feel like, I'm starting to change,.. from the inside... I am still as childish as before, honestly, the way i speak and all are also still the same.. but I felt like some part of me, has died.

Copyright to its artist (I just took this from google)



I met my Secondary+Highs School friends just around a week ago during my vacation to Singapore. Yes, they all said I'm still the same,  the way I dressed up, the way I look, the way I talk. But somehow, they also said, that I am so quiet now. I told them I was thinking about my exam results.. but I know deep down it's not the only reason. I realised, nowadays, sometimes, there are just times i wanna stay quiet. I mean, I used to talk non-stop to my friends, doesn't matter whether it's in a cinema, class, or anything. But now, I spent most of my time, especially in University, staying quiet and feeling down most of the time...


I wonder,... If I will be able to find the same excitement as before...


I wonder... If I can feel the same feeling as I used to...