Sunday 30 October 2011

Study~~ :D








Study Study Study, EXAM is coming :3 need to study study hahah :D

I think i can't post to blog in a while until the EXAM is finished. D: 'cause i need to study..

Friday 21 October 2011

Any Suggestions ??




Well, you see.. Mango's birthday is coming and i need to give him a present for his birthday. But i don't know what to give to him. i never bought a present for a guy before. 
you know, i don't have many friends before i move to this LSchool.  so, this is my first time buying things for a guy's birthday. but he is not my BOYFRIEND~! just friend. 
Did you guys have any suggestion on what should i give him ? 


Thursday 20 October 2011

My mood~~

I don't know why, but today, i feel angry with everything people said. i even angry at myself. i got pissed off by what my maid told me. my tuition teacher. apple. and i started to feel angry at myself too, it's because i angry at my maid my tuition teacher and apple




they done nothing wrong ! actually, i'm just getting a bad mood because i can't do my work.. i mean, my maths questions.. suddenly i felt so stupid.. 




By the way,, yesterday mango went online. he said that he is going to get his phone back soon. i chat him.. and he replied me "gyaa~ *hugtight*


Me in front of the laptop..
Eeeeeeeeeeh?!?!?!??!

and then, i asked him,, why he liked me, and he said "NOT NOW!! not enough time for me to explain all this" but he was online for 45 minutes ??? is 45 minutes not enough to just explain why he liked me ?? and then i asked him about the thing, that he wanted to sent to me on valentine day. i asked him "what was that?" he said that it is a necklace... that's the 1st time a guy had ever gave me a necklace. usually all of my boys friends, gave me dolls for my birthday. hahahahah,, honestly.. i didn't really use necklace or bracelet. Ring the worst. i don't like to wear it at all... hahhahahah~~~

Wednesday 19 October 2011

Broken Heart...


These few days,, Lemon always smile at Guava,, or look at her.. but whenever he talked to me, he has no expression for me. he doesn't smile like the way he does last time.. is that how you are going to reject me ? by showing me that you have no feeling for me ?? is that how ?! i knew it right from the start, that you would reject me, but i still confess to you.. i want you to know my feelings that's all ! I've always felt guilty about what happen last time, and now i really regret it.. i didn't ask much. i just want us to be friend. i wish you could talk to me the way you are last time. is it that hard to do that ?! i really really really really love you... i can't stand by looking at you paying so much attention to guava... it hurt so much that i can't stop myself to tears..

...is there nothing i can do...?
...is there really no more hope for me to be together with you...?

Tuesday 18 October 2011

Mango Pudding~

Today, my school was selling Mango Pudding. it's so nice >W< it reminds me of "Mango" :P hehehe.. Here is the mango Pudding Photo xD



By the way, since we are talking about mango.. it had been a long time since the last time i chatted with him , it was on 30th September. i wonder what is he doing.. i can't send him a text message since his phone was confiscated, i don't know by the school or his mother, whatever..  i can't chat him from facebook or yahoo messenger, since he doesn't goes online at all.. and obviously i can't go and meet him. he did went online yesterday , though.. but.. He didn't reply my chat !! so how could i talk to him like this  ?

Monday 17 October 2011

New Chara,, Grape ! :D

Let me introduce Grape to you,, readers XD
He is my Best Best Friend !! >W< He is just like my own brother :D
He is a shy guy , :D and he is 4 years older than me :) but we never seen each other, i just knew him from facebook.. 


Guess what is my first impression on  him ?? xD My first impression on him was "this guy is weird. better not to get involved in his life" but now ? We are very close,, and he was the opposite than what i thought last time :P

He is Kind.. 

and somehow, he is cute when he is shy XD hahahhah like, last time, when i say i love him as brother i mean. :P he got embarrassed about it. he said "uwaa,.. my heart beat so fast, deg deg.. (o////////////o)" so cute XDwell, he may not like the shy part of him. but honestly, i actually like him better in that way xD hihi.. 


but now.. he is no longer the way he is last time.. when i say i love him (as brother) for 
the 2nd time XP he say nothing.. he just 

laugh... he doesn't say the thing that he told me last time.. when i asked him who is cuter in the photo.. me or guava.. he can honestly told me, that i looked cuter (and i'm the one that got embarrassed when he said that =w=). the him last time would be too shy to told me all these !! i know, he like the way he is now better than the shy him. but.. i like him better when he still is a shy guy.. (.___.)


i might be selfish. i may not even his best friend to begin with. i'm might be nothing for him.. besides, i can not change people's personality.. but sometimes, i still wish i could talk to the him last time.. grape..

Saturday 15 October 2011

My Aunt..

My Aunt.. She was watching movie using my bro's laptop.. And she spoiled it.. ==
but then, she doesn't want to get blamed , so she blame coconut
Since this few days coconut always come to my house to play games in my bro's laptop during break time. when i asked her what did she do to the laptop, My aunt said..
"I think it is because of your friend"

inside my heart.. 


"She was just playing a game. impossible it would spoiled."

Last time she spoiled the house phone. she blame it on me. she said 
"every night u go call guava, that's why it spoiled"
What the hell? i'm just clicking the numbers on the phone and call her. and talk. that is how a phone should be used, would it spoiled just because of that ?! i'm so unlucky, since she is my aunt, i can't say a word to fight her back. i can only stay quiet and get blamed. cih! >:(
 

Tuesday 11 October 2011

Ashita Kuru Hi (English Version)

Ashita Kuru Hi = The Day to Come Tomorrow

This is not the real meaning of the Japanese version's one. This was made by a Portuguese
Here is the Link if you guys are interested to hear it :P Her voice is really cute :D



Fall is here and Winter
hides in the tips of the branches.
In the deepness of this world
there are no limits to kindness.

Every time the night falls
let us offer a prayer.
So that we can welcome
each coming day with perfect peace.

Please guide us with your voice,
oh voice so far, far away.
It sounds like a smile,
sounds like a song,
it sounds like the sound of the wind.

Happiness or sadness I'll
embrace it all and keep walking forward.
Cause we are together,
strongly connected.
My hand, your hand, are one.

Wednesday 5 October 2011

Sad.. O^O

I don't know what is this feeling,, I'm supposedly feels happy,, there's nothing that would makes me sad/cry.. but i still feels sad and wanna cry..  it's all mixed up!!
Last time, i liked Lemon,, and then i got annoyed by him, and i avoid him, i said him annoying... and NOW i liked him back. but he seems like,, he likes my friend.. Guava :(
and then suddenly i don't dare to look at him and others.. i AVOID him agaaaain..!
boohoooo~~
Lemon.. D:

Tuesday 4 October 2011

Reject ?

My friend,, let's just call him durian2 =w="a




when i was in primary, durian2 confessed to me in the class. but that time, i still do not understand anything about Love. so i ignored him. (_ _l|)


this year, in June, he confessed to me again, but i rejected him,... 
2 days ago, he confessed to me AGAIN for the 3rd times!! but quite pitiful... i rejected him AGAIN  =w="
Today!!! he confessed once again! he said :


"I don't know what is this feeling.. but i will keep trying to get you!"

honestly,,i kinda pity him if i reject him again.. (.___.)a 


so what should i say ?
how should i reject him without hurting him ? O^O