HELP!! x(

Anyone, can give me any suggestions ?!?! what should I do about Lemon now??? Give up on him ? forget about him ??? Tell me please,, Tell me, what's the best Decision~~~

Actually,, I've realized about this before, the Lemon that I love is the Lemon in my memories, when he was once my BF, but not the him now. He is Different, he is the total opposite of the him last time . 

I tried to not believe in it.. but I can't lie to myself anymore.. Everything was true... that, all this time I was looking at Lemon using my memory.. You guys get what i mean? i don't know how to say it correctly.. just.. (.__.)